December 2011
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we didn’t meet in that car but that’s where i first heard your voice. it was much louder than i had expected. it echoed differently than everyone else’s. god what a dumb way of explaining it. it wasn’t the things you said; it was the way you said them. sounded like they were coming from inside a big empty cave. i never knew you very well but i’m telling myself that...
Anonymous asked: It makes me sad that you haven't updated because I want people at least anonymously to know my thoughts and feelings and to maybe say something about them. Oh well, I'll just keep checking and checking every day.
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Everyone nobody nobody nobody wants me in any way shape or form nope nein naw and if they actually do want me they’re not very good at showing it.
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i dont want to be alive anymore i dont know what to do
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I let a handsome French man watch me masturbate because he told me he liked my smile. I feel so empty. I should have never done this. I should have never shown my face. my lack of control scares me the most. I can’t believe I gave in. And now I’m crying for enjoying myself for all the wrong reasons.
oceanicole- replied to your post: Don't date...
wow don’t take it so literally please
i was just in a weird mood and felt like writing something and then that happened
also it is coming from somebody who despises winter so
and not everyone knows summer is better than winter wtf everyone i know loves winter y r u so dumb y do i h8 u so much y tell me Y ~*~I NEVER WANNA HEAR U SAY I WANT IT THAT WAY~*~
am i your fire
your one desire
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Don't date somebody who despises winter.
Don’t date somebody who despises winter because they will leave you for five to six months of the year. Whether or not they want to, they will leave. Even if it appears as if you’re sitting right next to them, they have already left. They’re gone. They’ve been swallowed by the immense cold and they’re suffocating; they can’t move forward - hell, they can’t...
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i wear my sadness like a scarf and it looks like it belongs even in the dry heat of summer
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I felt really like mentally tense today like all I wanted to do was clench my teeth or scream or do something to relieve the tension because I was horny partiality because it is two weeks into my cycle (two weeks before my next period and two weeks after my last period) and in the middle of my cycle is when I feel the most horny also I was day dreaming all day about a guy I use to like feeling...
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hey orien
I’ll make a deal with you: you come back to earth for a day and I’ll take your place. tonight I just wanna live among the stars.
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i often think of falling apart (not often, just now)
i mean really falling, cracking softly into little pieces here’s my heart my lungs my toes what’s left of my sanity
tiny suitcases of sadness and madness and unrequited lust polka-dotting a floral rug
(i’d glitter i know it)
who are you and where am i and can i love you please and why does this happen and whose dream is that and there is no...
looking away
it is the last day of normal classes. some boy is walking towards me. he is wearing a green jacket and slouching to the side because his bag seems heavy. he will not say anything to me. he will turn either left or right into a classroom before he reaches me. when i look to my left again he will be gone. yep. he’s gone. we will most likely never say a word to each other. if this was a scene...
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i am giving up
i do not know how much longer i can last.
i don’t want to hurt the people that i love
i just
i
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My best friend might have cancer.
There’s a 5% chance, which is too high. Way too high for me. I don’t know if I can live without him.
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i had two dreams a couple nights ago. i woke up crying from both.
in one dream, my friend had been pinned between a tree and a car (not unlike the mom from signs) and she died very shortly after. i was in a very big lounging area with a lot of kids i knew when i got the news from her mom. i told her i was sorry and that i had to go, hung up the phone an threw it on the ground. it was as if my...
Anonymous asked: i hate this website. i hate that you don't post everything. i hate that it used to feel safe and for a long time it has been the only place i felt i could say what i was thinking or feeling, and see that other people were thinking or feeling the same things. and i don't care if it's your blog and you can run it however you want to. you make people feel like they're worthless or...