I’m falling for him again. I know I shouldn’t. His girlfriend is cute and obviously makes him happy. But he’s just so…easy to connect to. We shoot witty/snarky comebacks at each other. My friend J even said it last night: “You two are just great.” As in great together. We glance up at each other and smile during class. I go retrieve his ID from his room when he forgets it (because he can’t get into our dorm without it). And he’s helped me find an RA when I got locked out of my room. We’re constantly sharing music, books, and pictures. Making each other laugh. Annoying J by our lack of focus on anything that’s actually important. Well, our friendship is quite important to me. I’ve told him things that I don’t usually tell other people. We (me, him, and J) had a research project to do today, and me and him were sitting on opposite ends of my bed. He was singing Drake’s “Take Care” because he wanted J to hear it. But I just imagined that he was singing it to me. He borrowed my computer and started looking up all this rap while asking “Hey, N (that’s me), have you heard this yet?” He only lives ten rooms away from me, but sometimes that just seems so far. I feel like I’m constantly trying to reign in my feelings and not flirt too much. But when he smiles at me, gets excited to show me things and is amused by the things I show him, reads my poetry and likes it, and just seems genuinely interested in what I have to say, it gets so hard. And when he calls me “love” in that soft undertone, I’m done for.